I knocked on the mailbox before I opened it. I was trying to hear if it sounded like a big envelope. I opened the box, peered in and saw ......... a small envelope. I opened it anyway and misread it in my emotion. All I read was we had applicants more qualified. I eventually read the full letter and it said TR was ready but they had more qualified applicants than spaces. I get that, but I still want to know why our family didn't get a spot. What's not great about us? Why not our family? After I calmed and strategized and promised myself that my kids would get the educational enrichment I want for them, I was able to draft a letter accepting placement on a waitlst. On the one hand I am crushed but on the bigger hand, I believe God will guide us to where we need to be and keep us from where we don't need to be. I know the safest place is in God's will.
The school we wanted had everything right on campus so if we don't get in, we will have no or low tuition and heft gas bills. To make stuff hurt more TR told me things her preschool teacher said about kindergarten. The teacher said kindergartners coukdn't go to the potty. Sadly that is true. Kinder kids are treated like little inmates which is why I am cautious. I spoke to a woman who had taught kinder for 20+ years in public and said how the kids at school we applied to would skip, laugh, smile, talk etc, while going outside and public kids had to be quiet, straight line either in twos, holding hands or one by one. She said she had witnessed some kids line up by holding a rope. I don't get why public school must tamper down the natural inclinations of young children. That is not what I want. I am pondering hiring a retired kindergarten teacher. I would love to get 2 other kids for our school.TR will go to the school that doesn't want us for summer and after that we will officially be in kindergarten. I am excited about the future field trips. My goals are to raise children who read well, write well, speak well, think, think critically, are in tune to their sensitivities and sensibilities and are confident in their abilities. I will foster their love of learning and offer outside enrichment. It is going to be real.