growth and change

I am exhausted! My brain is in shut down and protect mode.

My business is at a place where it needs to either expand and grow or it will smother and not grow. It won't die but it needs a larger container to flourish. Its time to replant. Of course the replanting will cost.

This weekend I expressed my desire for an office space situation with a staff person there. I know if I tell Mr A my desire he will start strategizing on how to make it happen. I asked him to hold off on the planning because I am not fully in the mental place to do what needs to be done to make things function.

The space and staff would be two new expenses. It takes money to make money but it can also take money to break even. If/when I take on these additional expenses I need to make a profit sooner not later.

Living in L.A. inspires me to develop my business. Fortunately we live close to a few business districts so if I get space I can still be near my kiddies.

The last time I had space, I realized I didn't like it or have much need of it. It was exciting at the start, but eventually driving downtown and dealing with the parking hassles, grew tiring. It did help me maintain focus and stay organized. It also allowed home to be home. I liked having a business partner to exchange ideas and I liked that my brother and I could meet whenever we felt like it. His office was on the next block so we'd hang out. The good old days.

I took a mental health break this morning and handled a few personal matters. Managing a family of 4 is a full time gig. My kiddies walked to the park this morning. They usually take the stroller. My babies are so big!